Gaming Mom

     Kings of Chaos…. it was my demise. I don’t know how people can become so addicted to a game, but it happened to me.  I met a couple people and they told me to join with them in an alliance, they taught me how to play it.  I like it, I could be someone completely different then I actually was.  I had this account, and I could do with it what I wanted!  How much fun.

One day the person that lead us group of people had to go away, family issues, so he asked me if I would take care of the group of people, or alliance/clan as they are called in gaming.  I said sure, I would take over roll as leader and do my best, pfftt! It was a game how hard could it be.  Well it wasn’t that it was hard, but it took more time then I had thought it would.  I started spending about 3 hours a day on this game, then 4, then I was up all night, wars and negotiations, and allies.  It was a mini world and I was a leader in it!  I think it was the people in the game that attracted me more then the game itself.

They were from all over the world, I loved meeting them and talking to them about their lives and cultures, Ive even picked up some other languages, Dutch to be specific as a lot in my alliance were dutch.  6 hours gaming, I would leave the house and think about the gold that would be there when i got back home to *bank* or to take the gold and buy a weapon with it.  We call it banking.

This game became a huge part of my life, my persona in the game which I wont say was such that I, along with my other co leader as I called her, became notoriously hated for just being mean.  Something I was able to do there and not even project my real self.  Of course there were those whom I befriended and we became close and they realised I wasnt some kind of Satanic heathen! lol  But there were those whom became so hell bent on the hate they had for me, they literally paid someone to *hack* my accounts.  Basically they stole my password, got into my computer and took it over.  I eventually learned to deal with the hate and flaming and such, but it took me quite a few years before I could let it roll off my back.  Its a good thing I had such a good friend in my co leader, she was the calm one. I was the spaz.

It often quit baffles me why we become so addicted to these online games.  Some people to WOW and the likes.  Is it the game play? Is it being able to be someone else? Is it being able to be in a community of people whom enjoy it just like you?  Or is it like a need and desire.  i played this game for 7 years, I was hated to the point of death threats and many times I would leave it crying for being insulted in such a manner it was offensive, but yet, I went back, its just a game, would have been easy to just , walk away.

Makes you think.